Why?

Why is it easy?
That which I can
But 'no' I tell myself
So others don't

Or that which I can't
And I yet I say YES
Though I wont wont wont
So other say 'oh!'

Why is it easy?
To beat the self up
Is it so others don't?
Or others, I can't?

Why is it easy to?
To brood through their 'yes's
While happily smile
Through all their 'no's